http://www.pbase.com/tn464/church

HAHAHAAH...everyone go check out the awesome church ppl pics..lol...ted, i love the pics...love all yall ACC ppl!!!...come back during holiday breaks and we SHALL go rock climbing!!!

johann has a dirty dirty mind...our convo in spanish class while he was reading my cuento:

johann: (randomly) ni hao ma?
me: (shaken out of a daze) huh?
johann: ni hao ma...is that how u say it?
me: oh, yea, i guess so
johann: or is it....*smirks* ni ma hao?
me: WHAT??!!!!

hahahahah

thanks guys, i owe yall a bunch..yesterday was just one of those days that i had to get through.


and one more thing....to the person who keeps leaving messages in my tagboard as "hwang da zhong"...thanks, i love ur messages, but who ARE you??!!....i thought i knew who it was last night, but i noticed the thing about UT in there this morning, and that kinda threw me off...lol...or am i being gullible again??....^_^

and i sit here..staring at the screen, begging it silently to talk to me..i need someone.. i need anyone..anyone who will understand..to understand that i can't take it any more. i can't stand being oppressed anymore. to be waiting for this year for so long - to have let relationships deteriorate, hurting inside as i watched them deteriorate. i didn't want to let it happen. i thought this year would be differnt. i waited for this year for 11 years...i thought i could make up for it all this year...i was wrong..i don't understand why they won't let me..i don't understand why they don't understand...i don't sit inside and study and practice all day..my nature doesn't allow me to do that - and yet, for 11 years, that is what i have done..i have sat and i have studied and i have practiced..i have given up so much of my social life outside of school, and i did that all for them, so that they would let me regain some of it back this year..and now they won't let me.. i understand their point of view. i understand that they want me to spend this last year trying to get into a good college. i understand that they want me to practice so that i can send in a good tape. but i don't understand why i cannot do this while spending this last year with other people too. it's the last year i'll ever see some of them again. on the other hand, i'll be more or less forced to still see my family every year. not that i don't want to (..or don't i??) i'm just sick of it. i hate being caged up, as i have caged myself up for the last 11 years...and now, when i try to break out of that cage, THEY now turn into the ones who try to cage me back up again...do they not understand all that i have sacrificed?.. i try to talk to them, and it is like talkign to a brick wall..or even worse. i don't know what to do. i don't know if i can go on. to be disappointed after so many years of waiting. i don't know if i have the will to pick myself up and keep going anymore...i don't even know if i want to anymore

ciaconna74: *throws paintballs*
absolut_truths: ponders where stephanie got a hold of paintballs
ciaconna74: by paying $2000 at las vegas

HAHAHAHA...*falls off chair laughing*....i wonder how many ppl are gonna actuallly understand that convo...

for all u fellowship ppl:....i've had this song stuck in my head since sunday:
"o taste, taste and see...".....HAHAA..ok, we are NOT playing that song EVER again....in ANY shape or form...^_^

I. MISS. YOU.

*sigh* don't even get me STARTED on 5th period government today...lol

so sky decides to be an entertaining a-hole today, demonstrating my lack of gravity by continually moving my entire desk around (with me in it) merely by kicking it...haha, those soccer guys and their kicking skills*shakes head*...but that was pretty interesting..cuz soon the whole class noticed my victimization at the hands of sky..of course, the whole class, minus ms. duke - so of course, later on, i get in trouble for having my desk in this weird position in the middle of nowhere in the classroom...hhahaah...but i guess i was pretty amused...BUT troy is my hero for the day - because while sky was kicking my desk, troy was kicking sky in the shins...lol, freakin hilarious seeing sky's reaction....go troy!!!!..

oh!..and btw, ted, i got 3 free tickets for rock climbing (thank you jessica!!!)...well, it's more like 3 tickets of "buy one get one free"..haha...i say we get the whole fellowship to go too??...hehe...hopefully my parents will let me go..*crosses fingers*....man, they were MAD about last week...but it's not yall's fault, tho, so dun worrie....^_^

oh and troy just reminded me....i was caught doing my bio homework during lunch today...hahah i am NOT a dork!!

more of my adventures in government class:
- while "working" on our citation project, troy, instead, decides to tell us about a certain game thingie that he heard about while he was in las vegas (note: he did NOT actually go and play this "game")...in this "game", you pay $2000 dollars first. for what? just for being able to stand in this desert setting with a paintball gun, where you proceed to shoot real women with the paintballs..that's bad enough, u might say, but oh no, the fun goes on...you see, these aren't just regular women - these are women without clothes on.....man..where has our civilization gone to????

-sky likes to emphasize the fact that i'm short (i'm not short! and i'm not verticaly challenged either!)..and also likes to steal my stuff off my desk...CONSTANTLY...lol

-troy's reaction when he found out that **** got switched into our gvmt class..
troy: omg, tell me that he's not in our class
me: why? he was nice in physics last year
troy: *gives me weird look* b/c last year in english, all he did was sit there and hump his desk and draw little stick figures named "jack hoff"

hahahaaha, ok i guess that's a good enough justification

hmm...how bout we throw in some church stuff too:
- as of now, i'm the one who gets superglued to the flying carpet and flown into the wall by tedman, tedman is the one who will get superglued to the flying carpet UPSIDEDOWN, and davin gets to be the genie
- ivan didn't throw me out on hwy 6! or on hwy 59!!..yessss!!!....however, he can't throw out ted on hwy 45 b/c ted fixed his computer..boooo

anndd...i'm being brainwashed into going to UT..haha..that's a good thing, rite? rite?...lol

omg my brother is mean to me....he just came upstairs and gave me a catalog of his stupid fundraiser...CHOCOLATE..CHOCOLATE..and más CHOCOLATE - knowing full well that i couldn't buy any..lol

my AIM won't reinstall and AIM express isn't working!...help?????

how DOES long distance work anyways? faith? trust? steadfastness? ...u tell me..

N3mesis85: i like anatole's explanation
N3mesis85: how don't always blame things on god
~
N3mesis85: its just spiffy
me: that's why punag wants to be anatole
N3mesis85:o_0
N3mesis85: so he can have a 15 year old little girl say she loves him?
N3mesis85: dude
N3mesis85: thats jacked

this is OUR song...^_^

I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath - it gets better
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be

A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

now that ur finally back, ur leaving again so soon....*sigh*

some interesting convos i've had in the last few days:

me: when do u have government?
andrew: what?
me:...uh...when do u have government?
andrew: *extremely confused look*
me:....like...are u in 2nd period?
andrew: OH! i thought u were quizzing me on government or something
me:.................
andrew: i was about to answer "um, we have government when the people need public policy..or somethign like that"
christine: OMG

hahah...we're thinking too hard already, and it's only the fifth day of school..doohhh

and another conversation:
me: man, i heard u were BAD before u moved here
david: yea, i talked really loud, and i got into fights with people.
me: WHAT?!
david: yea, the teacher moved me to the back of the room because i poked a kid with a pencil and he hit me and i hit him
me:omg i can't imagine u like that
david: but now i've changed. i don't talk loud anymore. when i go on roller coasters, i can only scream like this *whispers* aaah!!
me and kristin: HAHHAHAAHAH

ok...that one didn't sound very funny when i typed it out...lol

and another one:

me: i wasn't online because my computer got the blaster virus
davin: man ,that sux.
davin: is your computer working now?
davin: hmmm..nvm
davin: stupid question

hehehe

and...one more...

me: oo, ur gonna be the next one on the flying carpet
tedman: uh no i'm not
tedman: actually, i would fly the magic carpet into a wall
tedman: with u superglued on it
tedman: lol
me: WHAT??!!

hahah...oh man, now not only is ivan gonna throw me out on hwy 6, but tedman is gonna fly me into a wall...greeatt..hehehe..j/k, i luv u guys


oh!..and more one thing!! absolute value of x over x!! *SHOOMM!!*...hahahahah...i say that i go to school early in the morning to study and look what i end up doing...heheh

aanndd...the HARVARD bet is ON!!!..

yea so church was..interesting yesterday..hehe...well...ivan cantored, i played piano, and everything was going fine and dandy until all of a sudden, i realize that I CAN'T FIND THE MUSIC FOR "HOLY"....so i start flipping around frantically...tedman turns around and looks at me like "what the heck??"...well, we get to the "holy" part...and father zee looks at me , waiting for me to play - but i can't b/c i'm too busy throwing sheet music everywhere trying to find the music...so benny starts to sing - off key, until he was corrected by the violins...and then..HALFWAY THROUGH, i find the music...wth...lol

next week imma sing harmony with tedman and davin and ivan are doing melody..should be interesting...we should make cecilia sing instead..heheh...buh i got everyone started on "whole new world"!!!..YESS!!!...hahah yall know how obssessed i am with that song

gov is by far the greatest class....i think it's cuz it's the lunch period...lunch period classes are always the best class....umm...however,.SOMEONE (*cough* TROY *cough*) decided to BETRAY me today by telling our corner of the classroom about WHAT HAPPENED IN THIRD GRADE (if u don't know what i'm talking about, DON'T ASK..^_^)....which also means that SOMEONE is gonna be in trouble...HAHAH...j/k troy...>)...aahh good times good times

and david saw my buddy icon!!..and he recognized it!!...hehe..maan, i still say MEXICO ALL THE WAY, BABY....lol

tedman has a picture of me playing the piano and i look like i'm about to sneeze...LOL...ummm i'll put the link to his pictures later..and i'll post about church later too...

Thida’s bday party rocked!!!...got there around 6, sat around with thida lauren justin and timmy for a while watching a random movie about some kid with an imaginary friend..ahh the good old memories of talking to our stuffed animals way back then..then martin comes and proceeds to entertain us with his super saggy pants and his attempts at flipping over in thida’s comfy floor chair thingie.lol..and justin knows how to play like all the final fantasy theme songs!!!....very awesome…meanwhile, we split up to go do different things: justin and punag left to get justin’s karaoke machine (that kid is a gold mine), and me martin and lauren drove to pizza hut to pick up our order…of course, it woulda helped if we knew where pizza hut was in the first place..^_^ .martin drove to papa john’s, upon which lauren is like “wait a second..we’re supposed to be at pizza hut, but we don’t know where that is”..so martin makes several u-turns and runs a traffic light while lauren calls thida trying to find out where pizza hut is…and meanwhile I’m sitting in the back trying to memorize the lyrics to “ a whole new world”(haha more on that later)…we eventually find pizza hut, and when we get there, martin keeps on playing with the bell…over and over again until one of the cashiers finally took it off the counter..HAHAHA…man the pizza smelled sooo good in the car…we coulnd’t resist, so we sat there and ate some of the toppings off the pizzas..mmmm mushrooms..hehe..got back to thida’s house, PIGGED OUT…somehow the conversation drifted to strongbad..maann, timmy is awesome at imitating strongbad..and sean connery…LOL..don’t ask…more ppl came in, kyle kelley andrew katie…and kyle and me finally found out that we’re both catholics…and that’s after knowing each other for 9 years too….lol…then we had karaoke time!!...woot woot!!...justin and me attempted a duet at “a whole new world” with martin as backup…I couldn’t sing the jasmine part cuz it was too high so I switched with justin….FREAKIN HILARIOUS….lol…although he sang the jasmine part quite well too…

aah, there was prolly more, but I had to leave…oh well…spent the rest of the night doing college stuff…*sigh*….but the party was awesome…all the parties I’ve been to this year have been awesome…senior year, man…

oh yea..and quote of the day from justin richards after watching me eat a peach with certain salivary difficulties:

"well, everyone has to drool sometime, sooner or later."

lol

wow, senior year is turning out to be pretty awesome so far...so FAR..haha...well, mebbe except for mentorship..i dunno...the only people i like in that class are the ppl from austin and clements..go figure..lol...*sigh*..gonna be a long 3.5 hours twice a week...but oh well...

haha...my gov class is hilarious...we have the best ppl in there...well of course i get stuck in front of "asian invasion" sky, but at least he entertains me...lol...and troy made me laugh today..actually both of us were laughing so hard we thought we were gonna die...seriously...cuz during lunch he saw this freshman who was so short that he didn't even go up to troy's shorts pockets...then sky says something about putting the kid on troy's shoulders, which makes us envision troy walking around with a ventriloquist dummy, then we got onto this whole thing about stufffing the kid in troy's backpack...HAHAHAHA...ok, it doesn't sound funny now, but it was hilarious then..LOL...

then off to mass/choir practice at church......tedman and davin are back from their cruise!!..yay!..welcome back!!!..hope yall had lotsa fun fun fun...^_^...we went picture crazy at church today tho...i needed to use up film...so i got cecilia to help me with that..hehe..then of course , tedman has to SHOW ME UP and bust out his spiffy digital camera..hehe..j/k tedman...^_^...aahh i wish i could spend more time with church ppl..so fun..

my computer finally works again....i'll blog this weekend...yea i have a lot to blog about..lol

oooo....i saw david's dream car today....350Z..but it was black not silver...=(..lol
and the first thing that came to mind was "wow that's david's car"..LOL...he's got he brainwashed too...hehe..^_^

had fun tonite!!!!....^_^..will post on it later

ok wow, u know what annoys me?

1)ppl not replying to emails (ok, fine, i'm guilty of that too sometimes)
2)ppl who u IM on AIM and then they don't talk to u but then sign off again randomly (*cough*fondu*cough*)
3)ppl who IM you in AIM only when they feel in need of mooching something off of u

perdóname...i'm just in an annoyed mood rite now..that's all

Wtw286 (11:14:46 PM): that sounds good... otherwise, I'd have to storm into the house and beat up your dad

TWOODZZ to the rescue!!!!....LOL

orkdorc74 (11:20:43 PM): holla
dAtbO id OnaLd (11:21:45 PM): wut it doo
orkdorc74 (11:21:51 PM): wad id izzzzzz
dAtbO id OnaLd (11:21:59 PM): UHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
dAtbO id OnaLd (11:22:03 PM): i like it

pic tomorrow..*sigh*...and i have not only two tan lines, but also a sunburn AND a violin hickey..GREEAATT

can't stand the suspense....kinda, i guess....arrghh

more of my random convos:

me: ok well that's not saying much, i know a lot of girls at the museum who are wild for u
me: like seriously
me: (as u have prolly seen)
******: hmm... that's so cool
******: I should print that out

and another one:
phillip: come join me, at MIT
phillip: see, it rhymes you have to come now
me: HAHHAHHAHAH

************: well, i wish i can find someone like you in college

^_^...that's the sweetest thing a guy's ever said to me

have u ever wanted to shoot yourself for doing something stupid?

why is it that want you want is always the hardest to get?
*sigh*...2 weeks is not enough

rehearsal at church yesterday was interesting....u guys are in for a ..um..surprise..(haha) after the end of the last song...hey at least we didn't do the pieces at breakneck speeds this time!!..woohooo!!!..and i promise i'll bring the service music..lol

today tho, we went tubing...CERTAIN ppl did/could not go....i was sad =(..(some ppl noticed..^_^)..but i had fun anyways....we went in the water like 3 times (which is actually a lot, considering the amt of time we spent in the water)...but my feet hurt sooo bad, cuz i went without shoes...and the rocks frekain hurt!!!...me and yvette went on the vine swingy thing like a billion times, it was so fun...and the last time we all yelled "cowabunga!!""..LOL...brian, however, somehow skins his knee on the vine swingy thingy, becuase being all smart of course, he got some ppl to pull him WAY back on the bank - and then he ended up hitting his knee into the bank..lol..haha..and also on the bus, brain decides to swing his nasty yellow boxers into michelle's face...so daniel takes the boxers and throws it up front - only that it ends up hitting taylor in the head!!!..taylor of course, puts the blame on brian tho..hhaha...and then the waterfalls!!..omg, that was great!!!...we even saw canoes go over the waterfalls...i loved the canoes..i want one!!...we were all trying to plot on how to steal a canoe, but in the end we decided that woulda been too mean..heeh..varun is the smart one tho!!...he just went ahead and grabbed on to the end of a canoe..lol...and the ppl in the canoe didn't notice either!...yvette and me wanted to do that too, but the canoe+varun was too far ahead by then

that was basically my day...fun and relaxing..hehe..woulda been funner if other ppl could have come along too..=(...

BUT...i hope that everythign works out good for certain ppl..i honestly do...and i would do anything i could to help, if i could..^_^

and so my time at the museum ends, at least for this summer....