hard work pays off, hell yea

hey is anyone know anything about the ecoteen field trip this year? taylor?...i remember someone saying something about how it was gonna be canceled for one reason or another....if we're still going, is it still gonna be san marcos, and do we still need to bring tents??...i honestly can't remember....i haven't been on any of them for the three years that i was there...so yall are gonna have to tell me...alrite ..adios

we had a blast saturday and sunday!!!...saturday we went to the zoo - alex and anu didn't go >P...hehe...but anyways, we were leaning over the warthog pen, and all of a sudden lindsey drops her water bottle in the pen....we were all completely surprised,and lindsey was like "oh no, i hope the warthog doesn't notice it"...then, of course, the warthog comes running over to the water bottle and starts nosing around it...lol....everyone around the pen all gasped...but the warthog left the bottle alone in the end...zoo was fun, but sooo hot....we spent about an hour and a half there and we were all dying by the time we got back...the best part was making the twister game tho - lindsey and me went downstairs asking for trash bags. the guy at the front was so nice, he just let us have the trash bags wthout asking any questions..then we realized that we needed more trash bags...like EIGHT more...hehe...lindsey went down and asked again....so in the end we made our homemade twister game, yeaaah!!!...if course, everyone ended up getting sharpie ALL over their hands and feet....and then we played mafia...that is ONE awesome game, i'll need to teach everyone when i get back...thanks wai-ying for teachign all of us!!..alex got killed about 10 times, poor guy..hahaha..i guess since he's only one out of two guys here, we all feel the need to kill him a lot...lol..j/p alex...and then TUAN totally screws up as narrator and kills off the mafia by mistake...hehe..it's ok...we all screwed up.....^_^...yea...so wai-ying and liberty are in on the "secret" now, don't tell anyone!!!!!...i'd be so embarrrased if a certain person found out.....hahah....ok so sunday we went to tiffany's apartment pool and played aroudn in the water.....chicken fights are soo fun!!!...i learned that i probably should not be a bottom person because i'm apparently too short....alex and me were chicken fight champs until tiffany and kevin came in....LOL...kevin is about 2 feet taller than everyone else so he and tiffany totally bowled everyone over...>)..we stayed in the pool forever, i have the worst tanline ever....then we go back to dorm, bla bla bla, play some MORE mafia......grrr yall killed me, an innocent townsperson 4 times in a row!!..geez....it's just cuz i'm short, huh? huh?...haha..j/p yall!!... then watched cruel intentions....gosh that is one WEIRD movie...but it was good...

we only have three weeks left....i know that my previous blog said that i wanted to go back home..but now i'm not so sure...it's just cuz of that one issue that keeps bothering me....if only some things were different, then everything would work out great....oh well...i guess i can wait....

yea..so um...for those of u who are wondering, i've totally forgotten about bozo..LOL..u should be proud of me!!...however, the situation isn't much better now, so i guess it comes out even in the end

i really miss everyone back home in houston....hope yall are having a blast at rice!!!....yall are so lucky - who am i gonna work with in my citation group next year??..kublai?..DON'T THINK SO....*** and *********, i'm gonna be so mad if yall are not in my group..ALMOST everyone who i want to work with is at rice...there are prolly about two ppl who actually aren't at rice right now whom i want to work with......i won't name anyone tho...(hence the stars)

janice and janica - i DID manage to get some pictures....not very many, but i think that is better than nothing, right?/...haha..i wish i had a digital camera then i could send them to both of u right now..waaaahh....look what u have done to me!!!...i'll tell yall more when i get back or when i actually get on AIM again..

i'm glad i'm in the bio lab....please forgive me when i said yall were "**** ****"...i honestly didn't mean that, i was just joking...seriously....come on, yall know that i always joke around anyways...if u want, u can throw rotten eggs and tomatoes at me, i'm really really sorrie if i hurt any of yall's feelings...i hate doing that...cuz i hate it when that happens to me

this is the longest blog i have written in a long time...it's just cuz right now i'm sitting around waiting for the incubation to finish...so i have 30 more minutes...how is everyone else doing in their labs, or in whatever city ur in??..anu? liberty? alex? wai-ying? lisa? lindsey? tuan? stacy? miinkay??...email me and tell me how ur research is going, i know u read my blog and yall know that i like emails...lol...anyways...i'm gonna stop hogging the computer now..

going to the zoo today....not sure if i wanna go or not...who knows..i kinda want to go home...so much confusion here..yea..kinda confusing...

yes, anu, it iS pretty damn ironic, isn't it??..HAHAH....so i guess part of the "confusion" hasn't been cleared up.. who knows...it may never be cleared up..after all, i do have tendency to go after (for lack of better words) those who are "unavailable"...i guess i couldn't help it. u can't help what you feel. you may hide it, but you can never sit there and tell yourself that it just isn't going to work out, so u better stop dreaming and start facing reality. it really is quite sad though. i didn't come here expecting that it would end up like this. ..knowing the circumstances, i don't want to. i tell myself that i can't, that it's not right, that it would just end up in the worst possible way for everyone. but yet at the same time, something is just here. i don't know what it is or where it came from. it sure as hell isn't looks (no offense), and not exactly personality either. sarcasm? wit? intelligence? cocky? there are all things that we all want sometimes, but we cannot obtain them all, most of all what we want the most, yet know that we cannot have.

don't u just love it when people act like they don't give a fuck about you? ... and after all that shit that u learn about "being nice to others"...ok, so from an earlier example from this past year, how come when i go out of my way to be nice to my "enemy", this person freaking totally blows me off and doesn't even try to smooth things over? yea. bull. shit. alrite, i apologize. i really have no right to be so cranky right now. my present situation doesn't help much either. i hate being isolated. i don't fucking choose to be isolated. and yet, right now i am. whether i am overanalyzing, or whether it really is intentional, or whether i've been fucking blind the past few days, i don't fucking know. *sigh*. i'm sorry. i truly am. i don't mean to sound like such a bitch. to tell the truth though, i don't regret choosing this. and if i had another chance, i would have chosen the exact same thing. i started it, and i'm gonna finish it. perhaps it is simply my path in life to always end up with the hardest, the rockiest path that there is.

oh...btw teresa, i'm over bozo now...u can have him,..^_^

very tired.....u do a whole day of autoclaving and washing 47 erlenmeyer flasks, and u tell me if u won't be tired too...hahah....look taylor!!!...i finally emailed u back!!!...aren't u proud of me???...lol....and tedman, i changed my away message just for u, so u better be happy!!!!....j/k....tomorrow i might have to stay in the lab for 12 hours straight...we're growing cultures, and i'm gonna have to watch it constantly..bleh....ok...later.

sorrie i haven't blogged for so long, i've been sooo frekain busy with all the work i have in arlington..haha..dun worrie, it's not that bad -- it's just that i'm an idiot and i decided to chose the biology professor to work with, even though i haven't had bio in 3 years..LOL..oh well, it's pretty fun though, i'm kinda glad that i'm doing bio, cuz at least i get to learn a WHOLE bunch of new stuff (and i do mean a WHOLE BUNCH) that i prolly wouldn't have learned if i had mentored with a chemistry prof instead..plus, most of them do synthetic chemistry - which after hearing the first presentation on it, i absoultely knew that i did not want to do that...but everyone else seems pretty excited too....

dios mio..brandy, janica, and janice...look what u have done to me!!...at first, i quite honestly did NOT see what yall saw in **** (*shrugs*..no offense...i just never really thought of him in that way...)..yea...so then i literally forced myself to think of him the way yall think of him..and um..yea...i think u start to get the point..grrrr....

i've been away so much...i keep havign to leave my away message up because i'm never in my dorm...hehe tedman, i am MANCHU!!!!!....not canton!!!..hahah..j/p..^_^

i realized that i haven't really written a lot of emails lately too....now taylor is mad at me...=(...i'm soooo sorrie!! i promise i'll write today sometimes

gotta go back to studying the wonderful world of the molecular genetics of bacteria...then out to lab again...even though it's kinda hard, i still have the most awesome research group...my bio prof is this really awesome, but really crazy guy who swears about every 5 minutes, and then calls all the lab equipment "stupid pieces of crap"..hmm...the grad students are really neat tho...maggie's doing her masters, kory is doing..uh.something, eddie is also new to the lab (yay!..i;m not alone!!)..and ashley is the headmistress...lol...at least that's all i've met so far..i think there are 3 more ppl who i haven't met.....hasta luego

i leave for arlington tomorrow..freakin 5.5 hour drive..i'm not looking forward to it, yet i'm extremely excited..does that make sense? i tried to explain that to both my music teachers, and they kinda just looked at me oddly..lol..omg, brandy, this means that we have to start our motivation emails soon!!..so that mr rubin won't yell at us when we get back!!..hhaaha...

michael is back!!..yaay!!,.well kinda..his parents are moving back to new teritory, but he's still staying in colorado for school..go figure,..after all, he IS #1 over there..and he doesn't have to do style analysis!!!...pooey

i hate it when u spend time and send emails to other people...and they don't answer back..or they wait eons until they do..i mean, come on, it's summer!!...think of all the free time u have...

anyways...gotta finish packing now...

bored bored bored bored....sooo wish that i was at the museum this week...*pouts*...waaahhh.....someone kidnap me and drag me to the museum...i can't study any longer