i have come to the realization that a doctor is perhaps not the thing that i really want to be...come to think of it, i don't think i've ever REALLY wanted to be a doctor. you know, it's one of those things that are always in the back of your mind, but once you think about it, you think again, and then certain things stand out that you didn't realize before.

for instance, pre-meds. now don't get me wrong, i have plenty of pre-med friends and they're completey awesome, but i just can't stand so many of them. the way they talk, the way they think, and worst of all, the way they interpret your actions as having ulterior motives.

do i want to spend 4 intense years of my life with these types of people? that's one of the basic questions that it boils down to. it seems superficial from a distance, but if you think about it, you'll realize that, well, it does make a difference.

i want to continue to be involved in biology, but i want to help people as well. maybe public health policy? health law? intellectual law? that would be fun and interesting....and i'd be able to write a lot, which is what i've always liked to do....i think that more than anything, being at this college has really showed me what i actually like and dislike.

bio is awesome and i love the research, but i don't think it's the life for me. i need a job in the future that will let me reach out to others in the community. i want to be able to help people through my knowledge of biology. for me, it's that when i get down to the details, i sometimes realize that honestly, i don't really CARE that much if mutating this particular serine residue induces a conformational change in the alpha helices through interaction of subunit a with the hydrophobic core. stuff like that. i want to be able to take the info compiled and apply it to life in general.

i want to work for someplace like CDC or WHO in the future, i think. somewhere where i could be involved, be right THERE and help implement health policies. or something like that, you know what i mean?


but we'll see.