ok, yea, i'm still alive, just haven't posted in a while. but that's the problem with blogging...after a while of not blogging, you just don't want to blog anymore, because there's just too much stuff that's happened.

plus, there's not much to say anyways, i guess. in general, school ended, went back to houston, went back to boston and here we are. oh yea, levi and astro visited and are leaving this morning apparently =(. last night gemma and matt stern came over too and it was like freshmen year in the 23 suite all over again! sometimes i miss those days when i didn't have to worry about anything at all, but sometimes i think about it, and i'm just like - man, i was so naive back then and i made some pretty dumb decisions about many things.

i feel like i'm at this point in my life where i feel older than i should be, but i think that a lot of people tend to think that - they tend to think that they're mature, when really, they're not. i remember freshmen year, i'd always want to stay up and hang out and everything, ending up in very little sleep, but now i go to bed at 10 or 11 pm when everyone else is still awake. actually sometimes, even now during IAP, i'll wake up and EVERYONE will still be all awake, like what happened several nights ago. that day was particularly annoying, because people who aren't accustomed to my sleeping schedule, like nicola's friend who was visiting from california, are like "why the fuck is someone getting up at 5 am?" and people who are insensitive (who shall remain unnamed) will make some sort of wise-crack about me being pre-med and working all the time because i'm pre-med. something like that.

anyways, IAP is coming along just fine - busy and at times stressful, but not too bad. i've been starting to run a lot though - ok, maybe not as much as like the track runners, but a decent amount for being completely out of shape. and push-ups! man i need to learn how to do decent pushups, i'm so ridiculously weak.

since this is already a disjointed blog post anyways, i'm tangent off on another unrelated topic. i guess i've been disappointed in some people lately. well, maybe one person in particular. it just kinda hurts when someone who you REALLY REALLY REALLY looked up to as a role model does something that just makes you look twice at him/her again and makes you think "is he/she really like that?" it's disappointing. perhaps i put too much trust in people, and i think way too much, which is my downfall. but yea, it's hard to look at this person quite the same way again, and that makes me really sad because..well, i don't know really why. i wasn't even involved, but just seeing it/knowing that it happened changes everything. for better or for worse.

anyways, where should i go for spring break? i have currently several options (in no particular order):

1) cancun (with ling, simon, etc..if enough people go..they got a REALLY good deal)
2) stay in boston (i've never really had a chance to sightsee and i kinda want to do that)
3) take a bus up to Arcadia National Park (i kinda want to go by myself, but i don't think that's safe, exactly...but i don't want to go with a large group either..maybe if one or two other people want to come along..?)
4) washington, D.C. (was born there...i want to see it again since i only have a very fuzzy recollection of it)
5) california (visit my big bro bryan!)
6) houston (always a great option)

what do yall think?