wow. i just reread what i last posted ...*tsk tsk*..i really shouldn't be so bitter should i?. i think i wasn't feeling well when i read that

anyway. time to catch up on blogging. i literally never have time to go online anymore. what am i supposed to write about anyways that's worth reading? i suppose people just happen to like reading random ramblings. either way, perdóname mucho if u have been coming to this blog and not seeing anything new. sorrie i can't help it. if i don't have time to practice, i obviously don't have time to go online either.

it doesn't help much either that this weekend i have more homework than all of thanksgiving break combined. bloody school. i seriously am worried about english..yes, i can analyze, but 40 minutes? HAH! as if....u guys already know how much time i spend on my papers.. 40 minutes...grrr...

speaking of practicing, today was houston young artists prelims. i abhor that competition con un pasión grande. all the people there (shu-hao pao in particular) are all jaded hypocrites who think that they know everything there is to know about music. and then, of course, the competition itself is all based on politics. after all, since they want "diversity in the world of music", they're naturally gonna limit the amount of each type of instruments that can get in. doesn't help much that about a million pianos always enter. so basically, if you play some obscure instrument like the west african ancient yoruba marimba, you are probably gonna make it in!! because who the hell plays the west african ancient yoruba marimba!!!...oh dear i'm being bitter again. but i'm serious, all competitions are like this, and it's worse when it deals with music. no wonder mr rubin and mr hester hate competitions so much. i sure can't blame them.

same thing applies when talking about just competition in general. in school, in everyday life. in my class, especially, competition has risen to such a fierce level that people who want to spend their lifetime selling apartments (*cough*sid*cough*) are taking AP classes like chemistry just for the GPA credit. what's worse is that because of this, you can't take the classes that you actually WANT to take. and then people always go up to you "what'd you get? what'd you get? what'd you get?" and then they keep pestering you until u finally tell them, and if they scored higher, they run around celebrating as if it's graduation day. damn u people who do that. u know, people aren't always perfect.

anwyas..i have work to do.blog later.