THANK GOODNESS THAT MY DREAMS NEVER EVER COME TRUE (i mean like dreams that you get when you're asleep, not dreams as in goals,etc..)

i had the worst dream of my life so far last night. i don't even know why i had this dream. because i never have depressing dreams. and i usually don't remember my dreams afterwards. so i don't even know why i'm blogging this. i'll prolly end up deleting it later.

i don't remember too much of it anymore, but i dreamed that one of my friends had died suddenly and unexpectedly and we were all at his funeral.

it was gray and it was raining outside. like they say in all the books, it looked like "the whole world was crying"

and everyone was crying. his parents, his sibling, his friends.

but for some reason i wasn't. i wanted to cry, i was really trying to cry but i couldn't. i remember that in the dream, all i could think of was "oh, i guess i can't give him his xmas present at school tomorrow."

it sucked. i felt terrible. and the dream just kept on going on.

and then i woke up, and i found that my face was covered in tears.

maldito sea....i pray that i never have such a dream again.....