i swear that i will never let myself be hurt like that again. i will live. i'll live my life. i don't ever want to grow up, cuz growing up just takes away everything that was and that could have been. all those what if's that you go through in the process of growing up. every hour that goes by, every minute, every second. you lose it all. yet at the same time, you also learn. learn to live, learn to die, learn to forget, but most importantly, learn to remember. remember all those good memories, cuz when you've lost it all, it's those small memories that give meaning back to life. you know what i mean. big things, small things. that one time you walked along the charles river by yourself at 2 in the morning. that one old beat-up tire swing that you used to play on all the time as a kid. that one problem set that made you want to cry, but damn it, you finished it and solved the problems and turned it in on time. that one song that always makes you want to run through the hallways singing at the top of your lungs. and that one person's smile...the smile and the acknowledgement that to him/her, you ARE a person and you DO have an identity. that's almost the most important one of it all. forget everything else but remember that one thing. give me life as it is, and i'll take it, damn it. i'll take it. i'll forget and i'll remember. maybe i'll learn to forgive one day. but i'll never let myself get hurt like that again.