i think it's kinda funny, and i think it's kinda sad.....

that after almost 17 years of this, after 17 years of having to put up with this bullshit, after 17 years of being pushed around, after 17 years of taking sacrifice after sacrifice, after almost 17 years...

i can still show up and put on a happy mask everyday, show up with a smile hiding the emotional mess on the inside, trying to prevent others from seeing so that they don't have to worry about me.....